Freedom in the name of Jesus

YELLOOOOOOOOOOO

2009-07-15T06:45:00.000-07:00

yellooooooooooo <3

its almost 12am, so its FINALLY THURS :D yayy! then hmm its 3 frigging MORE DAYS :D cant imagine how happy i am :D but also THANKFUL, for an AWFUL LOAD OF THINGS :D
i thank GOD, for being such a perfect role model and of course father :D
i thank GOD, for teaching me right from wrong
i thank GOD, for pulling me down from a massive happiness ( not in a bad way) so much that i start to slowly realise this world ain't perfect, that what is happiness in a day may become sadness,
that in any point of life, history may repeat,
that as humans, it is easy t get too over contented
that as mere people, our future aren't alwaes what we think it to be :D
that, we human should start learning to b more thankful and satisfied for we never ever know wads comin...
whether good or bad, its LIFE, love, our future :D
im thankful because i know if not for GOD, ill be sitting happily thinking that the world IS PURRFECT and that our lives will end jus like fairytales ending,
BUTTTTT one things GOD defo taught me tdy was, life isnt alwaes perfect and u noe wad? THAT IS WHAT MAKES LIFE REAL PUUURRRFFECTTT <3>

still. IM THANKFUL FOR AN AWFUL LOADSA THINGSSS <3
-for a wonderful GOD of cus
-for a wonderful FAMILY
-for a wonderful HIM
-for a wonderful bunch of GREAT FRIENDS
-for a change of an education
AND MANY MORE..................................................

although truthfully im also afarid of a hella loadsa things, so much that no one can ever imagines this fear building in me, BUTTTTT no away am i gna fall into e devil's trapp!
!!GO AWAY DEVIL GET FRIGGING AWAYYYYY cus this time U ARE NOT GNA INTIMIDATE ME ONE LIL BIT :D , because u dun noe how GREAT, MY GOD IS :D :D:D:D:D:D:D this god of mine, is a god of life, a god of forgiveness, a god of love, a god of fulfilment, A WONDERFUL GOD
that truthfully i cna never imagine a life WITHOUT him, a life without the one and only wonderful father on top watching me every single day :D makign sure my life is gng well :D and thate verything is gng as HE PLANNED :D

HUMANS CAN PLAN BUT GOD DECIDES,
pray abt what u wan, ask, pray, because god is jus like any other father in e world, only wanting the BEST for their children :D and believe me he wants happiness and greatness much more than u think for urself :D
but them agn, dun expect IMMEDIATE miracle, because if u think u noe ur situation WELL den THINK AGN, he knwos u deeper than anyone can noe of u, :D

-God answers our prayers in 3 diff ways,
1) YES, and IMMEDIATELY gives u wad u want
2) NO, and gives u smth BETTER
3) WAIT, and gives u ze BESTTTTT :D

if u realise, from all 3 answers, thr's nt exactly any negativity? :D:D:D:D
trust in him, although u may not see, feel or reali see his existance, but believe me, he's e one GOD tt'll have u THE MOST IMPACT in ur life :D because he's did tt TO MY LIFE, i believe he'll do wonders t urs too :D

its 3 more dayssssssssssssssssssssssssssss :D:D:D
-yearning, missing, loving <3

HELLOOO!!!

2009-07-07T11:30:00.001-07:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

its been 3-4 months since ive blogged!!
TERRIBLY SORRYYY :( well i dun think anyone's stil reading though, hehes, this blog is basically jus for me t pen down some thoughts at times, :D

im missing HIM terribly much now terribly TERRIBLY MUCH <3, sigh 10 more days :D its been urmmmmmmmm 11 days since he left?:( sighhhhhhhhh... :(:(:( words cant express how much i YEARN for him t be nex to me NOW NW NOW, he's fast aslp nw :) n i dun like stayin up cus it makes my thoughts run WILD, wild out and away!!! last week i stayed home a whole week, n spent ALOAD of time with GOD talkin to him... asking him stuffs tt i dun think i can ever share :( at times i wonder, well as many of u who reads here would know I THINK ALOAD, btu ya its reali when i dun share it tt those things i think of reali WEIGHS smth...
some things are just so hard, it isnt as easy as just DNG it, i know history have taught me ALOAD but i dun noe whether at this stage i should apply whay ive learnt, i reali DONT, for now i can only pray , cus i knwo noe one knows of my future as much as my dearest FATHER up above, JESUS :D

sighsighsigh, this blog s getting soo boring without pics, but yea im nt expecting anyone t read it too, jus myself, i love readin bak to my posts, seeing how much ive changed n grown each time, seeing and penning each experience down, cus we humans are far too over contented at times, we forget e pasts, and move on far too quickly, thinking that whats behind will jus go or disappear as time pass, but REALITY is, it doesnt, life will hit us back at the most unexpected times, what we take for grnated NOW, maybe our REGRET in e future...
many people have said they don't regret anythin in life, but REALLY is tt ever possible? can ANYONE ever said they ahve ABSOLUTELY never regretted in their whole life? well if u are one, congratulation, ure definitely one in a ZILLION :D
btu nth to be proud abt, regrets are OKAY as long as u learn from it, but... its not easy.. it really isnt.
i want to learn from it too i wannnn :( i wan i wan i wan!!! i dun wna keep making e same mistakes n falling into e SAME HOLE, it hurts, it hurts each time, no one can feel this much pain, no one, can feel this pain in their whole life... i dont want. but i did, i fell in ANOTHER hole, this hole isnt bad, bt this hole i somehow a hole i know was dangerous in the first place. but, what to do? i cant and WONT escape, ill move on, ill let GOD decide, all i can do now is PRAYPRAYPRAY hopehopehope :D cus i noe my dearest FATHER, will not and neevr let his daughter suffer or cry or least not for the wrong reason :D :D right dodo?:D i believe in tt one thng n i noe nth's gna get me down nw :) ill believe in him and carrry onnn <3

i love you GOD, i love you i love you... i love the way u make my ehart go up and down, i love the way u make me yearn for smth cus i noe u HAVE UR REASON, cus each time u make me tt way, u draw me close to YOU :D i love u for who u are, and NTHnth can ever change any of tt <3 iloveyou :D regardless no matter wad :D

and for YOU dearest, i love u, i miss u, i yearn fro u bak here :D ill do all i can to keep us both in this together, ill do ALL I CAN, ill not give up, how ever much im pushed, ill cry scream shout, but NOT GIVE UP NOPE, NEVER ever :D ill hold on till my very last breath :D till e very last moment :D till i noe ive DONE MY BEST :D for ive had regrets n i noe its not e best thng in e world but ill HOLD ON *winks* :D <3 hehehe

ps: (smth random) its easy to fall in LOVE but HARD to find someone that loves u like u do!
true?:D thot of it while thinking of wad lOVE meant :D <3

love, ME forever and everrr <3

terribly tiredd

2009-03-19T06:40:00.000-07:00

okkk hehe tt prev post was dedicaed to my dearest frens who never fail to pull me up in times tt im down n tt i noe they'll alwaes b tt wit thattt hehee i shall go slp soon since im relaii tired n MORE BLOG POSTS to come hopefullt after all my assignments are donee!!!! its onli week 3 n ive got like : -PPE READING like 3 weeks to catch up?
- SOCIOLOGY readings
- SOCIOLOGY essay dued week 5
-PPE essay dued week 6
- MANAGEMENT readings + tutorials
- MANAGEMENT essay dued week 4 (mind u its alr week 3 n ive barely started, KILL ME PLS)
-PSY CATCHING UP
- PLUS LECTOPIA LISTENING for lectures i missed :(

ARGHHHH IM SO GONNA DIE! pls remind me its ONLY week 3! wads gonna happen e rest of e yrrr BUT ITS OK with GOD AND E HOLY SPRIRIT NOTHING N I MEAN NOTHINGGG IS IMPOSSIBLE SO YAYYY! prayy hard for meee <3>but nevertheless GOD has been real sweet n nice to mee, putting e right people at e right time n i can jus soo feel that he HAS a plan for meee i loove him so so much despite me being so bad n not obedient at times he never FAILS to show me tt he's ALWAES thr pulling me thru e darkest times, giving me diff people tt i noe will help me not onli physically academically but also mentally and emotionally :D which is why i HEART HIM SOOO :D hehe without him at times i dun think i can pull thru some times in my life;D THANK THANK THANK U SOOO MUCHH GOD! thank u for never failing to assure me in e darkest n dryest times in my life, thank u for alwaes letting me be ur voice n helping u thru my own time :D hehe! LOVE U MUHC! with all e diff frens ive made soo far, whtrr its asian or caucassiansss i jus noe hes beeen so sweet wit some caucassians being so nice n sweet like in my Socio class, psy, management!! arghh altho PPE's stil boring but im determined nex week ill tal to this one girl whom i have a STRONG feeling is a girl tt god has put into my life for me to approach n tt he HAS A REASON for itt, so ANDREAAA ARGHHH u gotta start e convo THIS TIME! its jus too mcuh coincidental for me to NOT THINK tt its PART of GOD's PLAN! soooo BE OBEDIENT ANDREA N GO TALK TO HER! teehee, hope this is a gd fren in a making *LOOKING FORWARDS to PPEE!* Yayyy! love u ALLL MUCH TOO!!!

okok, nitey niteesss :D loveee <3

IM BAK IN MELBIE!

2009-03-19T04:10:00.001-07:00

hellooooo EVERYBODY!!! :D

if ure ever stil reADING my blogg :D haha! n whist im doin so im chatting wit my two dearest lian n chiii! hahaha theyre damnnn funny n hmmmm i reali miss them :( and all the otherrsss :(
im dedicating this first blog of mine since return to all my dearesttt frens, cuz ive kinda promised myself ill write a special smth to each of them wen im bak here :(
in n particular order:

CINDYYYY : hello sayyy!!! i jus wanna sayy thanks so much for spending time wit me this hols (altho ahlf of e time was u screaming at me ask u to help me wit ur psy) haha kidding! but i stil love u mcuh much muchh, n reali treasured all e times ive had wit u ddearest! i loved u sooo :D and ill defo miss u agn this whole yr but hope to see u bak in dec agnnn but now tt we've both gotten BBM its so much easier to talk share n jus remmebering how we used to b like in sggg :D ive defo never regretted having a fren like u and ill alwaes love u sayy :D love u so so MUCH! n plspls rememeber wad we've talked abt e past few days yaaa :D dun do wad wil hurt u cuz i dun wanna see u hurt like last time :( ive defo appreciated all e times u gave me into consoling me n helping mee :D i love u so muchhhh :D n help me say hiiiii too ur BOTAK! hahah! love u much!:D

BONIIIII : hahaha!!! hallooooooooo sayyy!!! ahhh i missed u soo sayyy! :D hahaha i felt sooo happy seeing u in PI the firts time tt i felt so so happy n thereafterall our outings, wad reali touched me was thge waterbom dayyy u noe u couldn play yet u stil went cuz of ME :( i love u SAYYY! huhu! cant believe i gotta wait anotehr yearr!!study hard yaaa hahhaa n thank u bon bon bonnn hehe for accompanying thru my trip in indo n sacrificing all ur time! LUPHE U MUCH! bonnnn beli bb donk biar bisa bbm ma gw n cin TRONK!:D

YULIIIIII! Yuullll AHHHHHH!!! hahaha work hard d indo ya sayyy!!!! :D i luphe u remember too wad i told u in e car tt day after waterboom yaaa gotta be strong n pls remmeber our talk in PS tt day toooo ::DDDD gotta be strong my girllll i love ur designs n i noe u defooo can do well my babe! hahaha luphe u SAYYyy! rememmeber yaaa nex time wen i go bak indo u better have least ur ONE LINE of design! hahaha! haha i wanna see it in fact its i DEMAND to see it! hahaha! luphe u muchh sayy! MUST have confidence in urself ya! :D:D:D cant wiat to see u agann!! LUPHE U miss u too :D

ELICEEE!: haha! haloo sayyy altho i onli got to see u ONCE this hols which is sooo :(:(:(!!! tp gw kangen banget ma lww!:D:D hahaha! cant wait for u to come here this june/julyy haha! ill bring u around here yaa :D hhehee! missed u soo mcuh sayy! but i enjoyed our morning talks hahaha! missed those times osso much! n congrats on u entering ur dream sch! :D hehee! im sure sure sure ull do superb well there!! :D:D:D! hehehe!miss ya sayyy cant wait to see u sooooonnnnnn!!!:D:D:D

CHI JUDY CHI!:P chiii omg wen i read ur letter and e thing u made for me i nearly cried :( cus i missed u soooo i can never forget e surprise u gys spring me wen i first got bak to sg which was lie 6plus AM IN E MORN which left me 'OMG' hahaha wen i first found outttt i was soooo frigging happy altho i didnt reali show it out but my heart felt so so goooddd being able to see u guya face to face agn after so so long, and after alll that happened however sad i was n how i actually knew tt u hated having to console people wen theyre sad cuz u jus dun noe wad to sayy u stil made so mcuh effort to console n talk to me :'( which truthfully made me feel so so mcuh beterrr :( i love u SO!:)))) arghhhhhhhh n im so sorry for having PANGSEH u soo many times but u stil everytime i ask u go out alwae sokk THANK UUUU CHIII :D:D:DD miss u mcuh n gd luck for more driving testtss :D hahaha

okk digressingg buttt....damn hilarious as i was sayin tt i was also chatting wit lian n chiii ahhaha chi is damnnn cute n lian is ever e same !! hahaha

[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
liann
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
go open a blogg
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
ahahhaha
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
creat lah... open
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
7-11 lee
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
huh?wads 7-11 lee chi?
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
oh... as if like open an 7-11 shop
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
愛左右亂動的小
Lian *^^* says:
haha
Lian *^^* says:
nonon
Lian *^^* says:
im lazy to blog
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haa! all your word would be like
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haa
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
bye
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
hahaa
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
ohhh
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
wadbye chi?
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
whr eu going?:D
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
hahahha
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
wait
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
ai yooo.....
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
ltr tonight everyone must read my blog yaa
Lian *^^* says:
huh?
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
got smth dedicated for u guys:D

Lian *^^* says:
awwww
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
no... i said .... if liyan have a blog right , she could probably write stuff like " haa, and bye"
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
is my communication skill that bad
Lian *^^* says:
wow
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
hahhahaa
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
shit man.. i need to talk to more people
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
lol
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
cuz u suddenlt bye maaa
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
den on sentence
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
hahaha
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haa... ok ... i am also doign blogging
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
nothing to blog eh...
Lian *^^* says:
blog hi and bye
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
hmmm i should write about how noisy liyan is today
Lian *^^* says:
nonono
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
HA... you dammmmm noisy can
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
even touch the screeeeeeen can sooo noisy
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
TOUCH not KNOCK
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haaa
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
ahahaha
Lian *^^* says:
nononono
Lian *^^* says:
i don know what
Lian *^^* says:
:(
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haa..... liyan knock on it for almost 5 min
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haaaa
Lian *^^* says:
:(
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
haa
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
hahahhaha
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
liyan HOW U KNOCK!
Lian *^^* says:
using my hand
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
hahhahahaha
[c=36] '[ d r e a <3>
YES DUH I KNEOW HAHAHA
JLWCHI: SHINE says:
HAA
Lian *^^* says:
haha

hahaha! now u noe why i love em both so so mcuhh!:D:D:D
ok, bak to topic!

LI-TARD :P: hahaha!as im tlakin to u noe cant help but keep on laughin and sharing wad ure sayinggg hahahahahhahahhahaaha i love u, i love our jump shots, i love ahving to race wit u to tp t see who to treat who bubble tea, i love our outings, i love seeing u in dress, i love having t chat wt u, i love out camwhore moments, i love how u console me, i love how ure willing to wake up so early to send me despite u being so SHOCKED e first time u heard it, i love our silly POPEYE moments in airport whcih alwaesssssss make zh wanna SLAP US! ahahha! all in all, I LOVE U!:D hehehe so so much n being bak here defo means i cant have allt hsoe precious moments wit u anymooo n U NOE waddd tt day i showed one of my frens our photo in e taxi after bugis?remember e day after u got sun burnt and we both wore blacckkkk? e day we made our FRENSHIP BRACELETS! den SHE asked whtr u were my sis! den i said YA! den she was like realiiii omgggg u both looo so alikee!! haHAHAHHAHA! omggg i look like litard!!! haha omgomogmg! how can tt be! :P hahaa!!!:P:P! i love u mcuhhh!:D

NANNANANANA! i defo miss u alot tooo!!!!! n thank u so so much for stil sharing wit me ur bits in life altho im so superb far n jus soo u noe, NO AMTTER wadd ill alwaes alwaes be here for u yaa no mattter! :D:D hehe like i said before, im alwaes an sms, call, msn, e-mail away from u, never too far!:D::D dun worry n BE STRONG my girl i love u much, no mater wad ill stand by u ya jus like how u did wen i had mine i can never ever forgett how u stood by mee!:D:D:D:D thank u too my dearest i reali appreciate each of tt moment! i love u sooo!!!:D::D:D n e sweet surprise u agve me on my bdae thank u :D thank u for giving me sooooo much of ur time in sg wen i was bak :( thank u dearest naaaa ill never everrrrr forget our 6 yrs long frenshippp :D:D hehehe! miss u so n ur lil screaming n ur ANDREAAAAAAAAAAAAAA in e middle of e road even in orchard!! ahhaha!:D:D:D plsplsplspls promise me ud work hard in sg for nex week or even A's u CAN DO WELLL N I NOE U WILL! GOD BLESS U MANY MANY my dearest lil girl! i love uuuu!:D::D:D:D

ZHENGHUIIIII: heheheeee e last i read ur blog u were sick GET WELL SOOONNN :D:D:D hehe n im so so proud of uuu ehhe tell u nex nex time wen i feel its e right time! but anyways!!! ahhaha I MISS U STUPID LOOO!! altho u boil my blood half of e time but i can never e times u sacrificed for me whtr its ehemmm FINANCIALLY or TIME wise hahahah! LOLLLL!!! our zhenghui arrrr hahaha! i can never forgett! omgg :D hehe ive missed u sooo! :D n sincerely thank u for buying me those goodies n withstanding all my naggings n sa-jiaoinggg one things i can never ever forget was wad happened end of '07 wen we were on our way to work n u told me ' ya la ya la sa jiao all u wan now laaa ltr u go aussie confirm no guy let u sa jiao tt way' n ur letter which made me cry like maddddddd wen we were at work!!! omgg, can never forget n our telepathy : u beign able to guess who i likes during work! OMGGG! aha shocked mee! but i love u muchhh dearest LOOO! LOVE IN A FREN WAYY:P hahaha! talk to u soooonn n DO WELL FOR A's!:D

FIRR!!! altho tt night talkin to u made me VOMIT BLOODDD! but i stil miss n love u much much too! hahaha! ure defo more gd looking nowww haha hmm alll girls out thr LOOK OUT! hahahaa but ure funny side NEVER CHANGED! u stil can make us laugh non stop!!! hahaha which is sooooo refreshing after a whole yr of stress and all :( haha ive missed u soo mcuh, n love how emotional u can get which at times makes me c e more sensitive side of u which people at first look will never thought u have since ure alwaes maing up jokesss but im reali stil so thankfull for u :D:DD work hard yaa cus i noe u can defo DO WELL! ahha! n i reali cannot wait to see u in nov/dec agn n tae our CAMWHORES PHOTOS WHICH WA SLIKE 60++++ in e bus alone! aahahahah! love u mcuh!

VER LINGG!!! HAHHAA! omgg im so so sorry tt i missed out our jogging cycling n swimming session and our heart to heart talks but its OK! we made a deal for this dec! altho i onli saw u a few times this hols but is til treasured all e times we spend, i love u much stil my girl :D hehe n u defo stil have not changed stil as blur as ever n is til love pinching ur cheeks!
ahhahaha! i love u much!:D STUDY HARD FOR A's yaaa cus i reali cannot wait to catch catch up on uu! n hahahahaha everytime i think on e first time i see u agn wit yee on my bakdoor i felt os so nice so so gddd :))) ahahha finallyyy n now tt im bak :( im bak to missing u all over agnn sighh I LOVE UUU!:D

YEEEEE... hehehe!!! remember our PROMISE ON MSN YA wad u CANNTO DO EVER AGN!!! ure a strong nice girl n plsss u dun deserve people who DUN appreciate uu my dear :D ehhe i love u much much!::DD: hehealwaes be strong and no matter wad ill alwaes b here for u ya! hehehe!n thank u soo sooo much for making time on both times to meet me altho once u had exam n e other u ahd to rush home n u ended up getting scolding cuz of meee n i can never forget e sweet words u said to me before u leftttt omggg, i can cry jsu thinking abt it now, i love u my dear girl n im so glad ive got u too :D i love uuu MUCH! study hard too ya! hehe ill awlaes be a phone call, msg, msn, e-mail awayyyy hehe! MISS U MUCHHH!@<3>

TOH LAY KIEE! ehehehehehe!altho i din get t meet u on my last day in sg which was like :((((((( but i stil appreciate u spending ur time wit me in e steamboat n ice skating which was soooo much fun! ahahahaha our dare drink n alll! n our lil chats in e taxi which was soo HILARIOUS! hahahha!n im so glad to hear how well ure doing in NYP! hehheeeee n i cant believe ure actually doing wad ure doing thru out ur sec sch life now !! hehee im reali confident on hwo well ure doin! n altho we didn get to go to ur hosue into e attic to look bak at old times n play our TRUTH OR DARE agn but i promise this coming year end hols WE WILL YA!! ahhaha! i love u soooo!!!:D::D MISS U TOO!!!

DEBSSS AIAIIII im so sorry ive nto replied ur e-mail i PROMISE U I WIL TMR! hehehe, cuz i felt lie wad uve done for me this hols will do u justice if i dun tell everyone how sweet an AIAI uve been!:D thank u so so much, for being thr for me thru e darkest times, for accompnaying me thrum for consoling me, for jus being thr, cuz i noe ur ears wil alwaes alwaes be thr!i love u sooo, everytime i think of how GOD jus seem to give me probs jus wen i noe i cna immediately turn to u i jus noe how WONDERFUL he is cus he noes u n me both have similarities tt we both can alwaes relate it!! hehe remmeber we're alwaes changing our sides :( ehehhee but dun worry i noe ull alwaes be stronger than mee! i LOVE U MCUHH! n I THANK U N CAN NEVER STOPP THANKING U FOR ALL TT UVE EVER DONE! i love u MUCH MUCH MUCH! be strong yaa cuz i noe ure diff from everybody else, uve got a certain smth tt i noe NO ONE can ever ever havee :D:D i love u!!!

EUGGENIA!<3omg omg im sooo terribly sorry for not being able to meet u altho ive got like TONNESSS OF THINGS TO SAYY TO UUU! tonnes n tonnes to share since we've not met for years n yearss! hahahaha so so sorryyyy but i PROMISE end of this yrrr we'll defo meet n ull also finally be over wit A's so we btoh will have equally as much time! YAYAYYA!hahahah! missed u so so so have got so many things to catch up! miss u girl :D dun worry ya this time ill reali keep my PROMISE!! :D:D:

nnnn RUIHAOOO! dun think ill forget u ayaa hahaha!ahhaha im so thankful for all e times we chatt n e times u helped me in (u noe wadd) hehe thank u!! reali appreciated it eventho i relai disturbed u during ur class all SORRY! but still THANK U soo so much i relai enjoyed our outings n meeting n all! hehehe! n cant wait to see u in dec agn! hehehe! ahhaha! taker alwaes ya n plsplspls STUDY HARD! rememebr wad we talked over the phone tt one night u realii need to work hard ns top thinking of becoming *** OVERNIGHT!! ahaha!!! missed u muchh!! ahahhaa!!!!! n yea i noe ure bathing now so u can read after ur bath!:D:D:D

n too all my other dearest frens eg) JERRRR, SEOW, ANGELINE TAN, MICHEAL! hahaha ive missed u guys sooo cant wait to spend time agn in sec sch n e rets of 6C'03!!! omggg!! hehehehehehe i miss u gueys sooooo SEE U IN DEC! I PROMISE! LOVE MUCHH!<3333333
:D:D:D:DD:D
okkk omgg this is a uber long postt thank uuu to those who botehreed readin all e way till here! LOVE U GUYS SOO!<3

Jesus

2009-01-25T04:43:00.000-08:00

Jesus, beautiful saviour.
Lord of all majesty risen king
lamb of God,
holy and righteous, blessed redeeemer
bright morning star,
all the heavens shout your name,
all creations bow to worship you
HOW WONDERFUL
HOW BEAUTIFUL
name above every name, exaltious high
HOW WONDERFUL
HOW BEAUTIFUL
JESUS YOUR NAME!
name above everyyy name... JESUS :D

isnt jesus beautiful? no man can ever ever be like him. isnt he the most wonderful beautiful person one can ever have? i feel so thankful at times,
things i guess haven reali been tt gd e past week, i would say this whole week has been realll BITTER SWEET but i guess without lord jesus, i wouldn be passin this whole week now n lookin bak telling myself how silly ive been doubting GOD even once!!! :D ilu. but i guess this is the best, i guess this is wad GOD has planned for us, altho i feel so so sad now, altho i reali hoped right now ive got u nex to me, altho my tears are on e verge of rolling, ill hold on. 3 years, and i reali pray things go right :D
i love u lord jesus christ, i love how loving u are, i love how much u alwaes forgive us of ALL our sins, love how much u never judge us, love how much u r alwaes THERE, even when ive forgotten all abt u at times, love how uve written my name and all others name in ur palm, so much tt yyou'll respond to us at the RIGHT TIME, how u never fail to support me thru my darkest times, love how much uve planned wayyy ahead for us, love how u answer our prayers thru ur unique ways, so much tt even if it takes time at times, ITS OK, cuz i noe e BEST is yet to come :D love e way u try to pass msg-es to us at times, love how u nvr fail to remind us how much u love us! n lastly, i jus love e way u are :D my dearest GOD :D i love you. more than anything i do. and neverrr would i forget or neglect u :D having to know u in my life has reali been e biggest GIFT :D cuz i noe w/o u id never be able to live down e rest of my life.

ok i jus atee so so much n i feel like vomiting now. so i guess i shall stop blogging now.ciao!

love, me

wads meant to be will be,,,

2009-01-07T05:16:00.000-08:00

since im in a quite NEUTRAL mood nowwwww... i shall BLOG! :D haha! surprising uh???

:D haha! sigh actually im quite confused abt how im feeling now, a lil happy a lil sad, ya i guess tts why its called NEUTRAL! :D haha! arghhh ok i dun reali noe why im here, all i know is im missing someone, n i cant believe im saying this but: I miss MELBOURNE :( i miss spending time with my special someONE, sometimes i wonder if wad i did was the right thing. i love YOU. more than anything, but...... ya nvmm, sigh i shall upload fotos of my summer break tripp, tts if blogger allows me to, with this frigging slow internet in INDO :( iloveyou.more than anything. i just hope u noe.

Maybe life isnt as simple as everyone thinks of it, mayb UPS and downs are vital parts of life. the past few days i seem to be lying in bed quite often, talking to my dearest GOD asking him quite a number of things. if u love someone? wad shud u do? how do u actually knw tt e someone loves u bak too?:D i wonder. GOD gave me a dream two nights ago. The dream, i have to say is one of the best SO FAR :D eventho i was rudely awakeennn by a CALL at frigging 8am!, but i guess it made me wonder. the dream made me feel so LOVED, so SECURED, so HAPPY, so SAFE, so so LOVED! tt i jus couldn help but wonder the msg GOD was tryin to convey in THAT DREAM. even til now, im stil pondering and thinking, truthfully ive been findin it so HARD to breather under this whole flood of water. SIGH, i loved u, so so muchh. but i REALI wonder, how long more can i last, how long more. i feel so scared,so sad,so unsecured, so :'(!!! one thng's for sure, im not reali enjoying this hols, with soooooo many uncertainties and burdens, i feel tired, i feel sooooooooo lethargic, which is ironic as it totally defies the whole purpose of a HOLIDAY! :( IF ONLY A MIRACLE COULD COME, IM IN NEED OF IT, IM DESPERATE FOR A M.I.R.A.C.L.E! jus one and ill be more than happy :D cuz i noe this is one thing i can never do on my ownn.. PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS GODD PLSSSSSSS! :(

PS : ive decided not to upload fotos now since blogger is DARN SLOW n im super lazyy so ya! nex week den, wen i get my ass up to sg <3 love u much much :D u: ONLI HIM :P

WORDSSS

2009-01-02T21:43:00.001-08:00

'' What happens when the person who normally stops u from crying. makes u cry?''

'' I loved and lost the day u left me''

'' Love is like the wind, u can feel it, but u CANT see it''

'' Whats mean to be will be''

''LOVE, like LIFE is NOT a BED OF ROSES''

: words tt represents how i feel now, i wished u knew, i wished, u can be here now! :(

love, me

HAPPY NEW YEARR '09!!!

2009-01-02T21:24:00.000-08:00

! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !

HAHAHA~ its definitely been ages since i posted ANYTHING uh! hahaa! so yeaa, IM BAKK!!
anyway, this new year defiitey isnt gonna be the best YEAR, but i believe nth as bad as one alwaes thinks of situations, life's like a roller coaster they say, one day youre UPPP, another, Ure downnn :D but its ok, n as everyone else are making their new years' RESOLUTION, i shall have mine tooooo :D

NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONNNN:
1) to save $$$$$
2) to pray everysingle day leastt 4X for GOD to fulfil my that ONE WISH
3) to lose 6kg!
4) to exericse regularly
5) to treat my dearest the bestttt <3
6) to change my temperrrrr
7) to study HARD in uniii :D

YEAPP!! i guess tts alll :D this year i know its gonna be one of e toughest year, not onli for adults working, but believe me, for me too. SIGH, like wad ive alwaes saiddd, if only life could be more simple. falling in love is the hardest THNG EVER, for all u single people OUT THERE, dun envy those tt alr have a bf, believe me, the grass over here is not any better or greener, jus like how even e rich suffers, so does US who has bfs/gfs. i pity my dearest who alwaes has to withstand my sensitiveness, jealousy, whinings, anger and many moreee. i LOVE him, more than anything, but i cant help wonder, when some situations arisee, does he love me too? i trust him, but when he does somethings tt makes my heart burns and cuts thru, wad SHOULD I DO? but i guess, this's e life and the path i chose, no use regretting. but nevertheless, '09 wil be harddddddddddd!,

i wish:
i can be less sensitive
i can changeee n stop being so maddd abt someone
i can love others as much as i loved u
i can stop falling for someone insensitive
i can be the way others are like ( ignorant)
i can close one eye to all e thngs u did
i can STOP FALLING IN LOVE!
i wish, this is the -END- and no more after this!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IM GOING CRAZY AND I HATE THIS!
THIS HURTSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!! LIKE HELLLLLLLL!

how i wish

2008-10-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

how i wish...

life could be simpler
life doesnt need choice
life can be as easy as ABC
life allows us to pause or stop at moments we want to last foreva
life can be less cruel
life is selfish

but i know, its IMPOSSIBLE, i love you<3>
but please believe me, wadeva decisions i make from tdy on, i will love u, till my last breath :D and that, is a PROMISE ill never break.
i. l.o.v.e. y.o.u.!

21hours from NOW

WAIT and you'll be rewarded :)

2008-10-03T08:21:00.001-07:00

behind tt wide smile, are tears tt never stopped dripping.

48 hours from now, HE'll be bak, n he'll be right nex to me. but i know, bcoz of tt, tonight, ill be paying a v big price. but i cant help but thank GOD for HIS goodness!
last sunday i prayed :D for a MIRACLE this whole weeeeeekkk N GUESS WAD!
he answereddddd :D

MONDAY- e most stubborn person KNOWN, went to CHURCH
TUESDAY-out of hundreds over people, SHE CALLED ME! how great is GOD!
WEDNESDAY- i came to realise my HUNGER for GOD n placed all my burdens on HIM!<3
THURSDAY- I WAS CALM N PATIENT DESPITE THE TONS OF PROBS!
FRIDAY- TODAY!NOW! n i believe its in e process :D

i love GOD so so much, even in my down-est moments, he never fail to cheer me up, to bring me up n to love me unconditionally, im a SINNER, n ill own up to tt any-day, but my love for him, is smth i wouldn doubt myself. never failing to pull me up in the worst times of my life, and since WED, i finally understood e feeling of truly giving him my alll n not worrying for anything at all. thats how much i love HIM, lord jesus christ:D
n there was once i read my sis's saved msg, and came across one tt left a deep amrk within me. one tt read:

JESUS answers our prayers in 3 diff ways...
1) YES, and gives u wad U WANT
2)NO, and give u SMTH BETTA
3)WAIT, and gives u THE BEST :D

and this time, in this situation, i know its a WAIT.
of course ive ever wondered, how long WE both will last, after SO MANY THINGS TT HAPPENED, after knwoing of so many things which fell on me, I, ANDREA CATALINA LAKSANA, know much more than anyone else, the feeling of getting hurt, knowing how painful it feels when ur dreams get smashed up! but i fell for HIM, and i knwo NOW its far too late fr regrets, and truthfully i DO NOT regret being wit him. but its jus tt seeing him, his parents hurt, doesn make me feel ANY BETTER, knowing how graved him parents are, doesnt make me ANY HAPPIER. isnt ironic, how when we all were young we hoped n prayed tt we could GROW up FASTER, and now tt we're all grown up, we're praying and hoping we could go bak to the innocent days? :( sometimes i wonder, if onli time could move at a slower speed, if onli i can be 1yr younger, if onli i could be prettier, if onli life wouldn be this harsh, if onli e world is problem-less... if ONLI, but well, tts all nth but a DREAM,
waking up from tt unrealistic dream, i realised tt REALITY doesnt exactly give us time to DREAM, instead of COMPLAININ ABT WAD U DUN HAVE, why not give thanks to those u HAVE?:D n ive decided to do JUST THAT, the many things GOD has given me, i shall treasure and fully utilise it :D

ok, im like straying so much from wad i initially wanted to say, but then again, im now too tired to think abt wad i wanted to say...gooodbye :D

'YOU ARE HUNGRY FOR GOD, and he loves it!' - thank you for tt one person who wrote me tt, it reali WOKE ME UP!<3

2 more frigging days!

RANDOM PHOTOS!

2008-09-21T05:01:00.001-07:00

RANDOM PHOTOSSS :D in no parti orderss YAWN im so tired noww...!
CELEBRATION <3
MISS MISS MISS the wonderful times , the b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l SCENERYYY

YES I know JOS have got legs as thin as sticks!
jump shots are L-O-V-E
n i noe wit u guys around, things cant go wrong :D

the MEMORIES :(

OK OK SHITT IM SUPPOSED TO STUDY! ok then this shall be my last post for the night nitey nites my darlings, gonna wait for hunny whilst stduyin or smth i guess WISH ME LUCK THIS HOLS CUZ ILL DEFINITELY NEEDIT! MUAH MUAH!

god bless,
14MOREFRIGGINGDAYS :(

A NEW POSTTTT

2008-09-21T04:34:00.000-07:00

apologies for my prev superb emo post, but ya RELIEVED TO GET OFF THINGS FROM MY MIND N HEART :D n now its my hols TIMETABLEE!

haha SCHOOL WORK :
-EAP debate presentation
-MATHS term 1&2
-ACC revision
-PSY revision
-HOI readings
-LIT hamlet READING!

outside activities:
-CHURCH
-GYM! (needa lose 5 kg in 2 weeks! YES I CAN. DO NOT BURST MY HAPPY BUBBLE)!
-DFO
-NGAFE
-MOVIES!
-SWIMMING!

yes yes yes ANDREA CATALINA LAKSANA CAN DO IT!:D
n guess waddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd from tdy on its 9+31+30+9 DAYS!= 79 DAYS till SGGGGGG! sggg HERE I COME! omggg how time seriously flies, its now LESS THEN 100 days! IM SUPERB EXCITED, FOOD FAMILY FRIENDS HERE I COME! WOOOHOOOO !!!
but i guess all happiness comes with a price, i just hope this price im gonna pay is not a price ill ever regret living for , plspslspls!!! ok ok MOVE ON ANDREA!
hehe n hols have been WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~ after exams e fourofus- got on to a FUNFILLED HOLS! hahaha :D -secretholiday- which shall not be revealed here! but wooohooo i loved it! :D so so much
from a small lil wish, to a small lil prayer, to an ANSWER FROM HIM! i thank you so so much GOD i know i know im supposedly e LUCKIEST girl anyone could wanna be, i noe u noe how much uve given me, so so much, so so so much, so much that the thought of it itself could make me cry all OVER AGAIN! how great is the LORD~

adding on to that im GAGA over this song- IM YOURS!
yesyesyes my dearest LINWENCHI got me crazy over this song, i love you CHI! i missed u tonss :D i hope u'll like e pressies! n sorry for such a late delivery but all my love are stil inside! no worries yea :D hehe i love you!

N CINDYYYY ARGHHHH IM SORRY I CANT SEND UR PRESENT CUZ I SUCK AT DELIVERING THRU POSTOFFICE!but promisepromisepromise, e nex time i see u all ur presents will be accumulated :D:D i love u n hope u had a blasting 18th birthday MY DEAREST DEAREST BABY! :D hehe

n to my other DEEAREST friends ive forgotten NONE OF YOU! n for all my JC DEAREST!BEST OF LUCK FOR PROMOS! i believe trust know EACH N EVERYONE OF U can DO IT! n i so so believe :D im looking forward to all e GOOD NEWS FROM THE EXAMS! i cant cant cant wait, missed u guys so so muCHIE! hehe

n of course not forgetting POLY DEAREST haha sch started, i just pray tt all of u guys love ur new classes! :D haha I CANNOT WIAT TO JOIN lectures wit some of u guyss! lovelovelove!<3

last but not least,
C KATH! im soooo proud tt u pulled thru, tt u put everything IN GOD's hands n i believe he has answered ur prayer, i love n miss u so so much, so muchhhh :D believe in urself ya dearest i love you :D love love n i cant wait for e nex time i can see which is GOD KNOWS WHEN :'(
put all ur trust in HIM n he'll show the way
tuhan memberi jalan SAAT tiada jalan and there's no exception:D

BACKKK :(

2008-09-21T04:00:00.000-07:00

IM BACK! :(
but as all of u can definitely see...... my blogging marathons is on normally in hols, n for all of my gd frens out there, u guys shud noe why :(
2 more weeks from TDY!!! arghhhh which is like superb LONGGG :((( GRRRRRR!
but i guess its okkk this shall be a fruitful HOLIDAY! n ive got it all planned outtt *cross fingers* it works n is followedd i pray pray prayyy :D

but then again ive got aload in my mind right now, so so much, so much tt i cant say it, so much tt all i can do is pray, pray tt god WILL give me this strength to carry on my nex few months, i praypraypray tt god would not burst anymo of my happy bubble, ive waited, ive suffered enuff, ive cried enuff, so much tt i DO NOT wanna go thru all those SADNESS ANYMORE! i cannot, i praypraypray tt 17/08/07 would be e last i cried so bad so bad so so badddd...
GOD: plsplspls, let tt me the last time, plsplspls let all my sacrifices this holiday be worth every second, plsplspls dun let me go thru tt pain anymo, plsplsplsplspls, ill do anything as long as things go well plsplspls, i praypraypray, give me n HIM this strength to go thru all these, i need ur miracle, n if ive ever prayed for anything, i wan u to know tt this is the time i reali reali reali pray u'd fulfil this one prayer of mine, i love u, i love my family, i love my friends n i DEFINITELY LOVE HIM! so so muchhhh <3

to HIM: thank you for having been such a strong pillar in my life, esp the past 7 months, i love u so so much so so so so much, so much tt no words can ever describe this love ive for u, i thank you, thank you for having been the PURRFECT person in mylife, u made all my sufferings n sadness e past few years so so worth, now i can go back to the past n tell myself: ANDREA YOU DID WELL N YOU DESERVED HIM SO MUCH AFTER ALL THOSE HARDWORK! n im soooo thankful, i defnitely know im not the BEST girl in the world, nor m i the BEST girlfriend, i know im not, but no one's perfect isnt it, but all i know is, everyone is PURRFECT the way they are, jsut like u to me <3> thank you for never failing to make my day, thank you for making my life in aussie so so much easier, thank you for making time fly so past, days with you here are days i hoped time COULD JUST stop THEN N THERE! just so i know we'll NEVER separate, im so so so scared, so scared nex yr life wouldn't be the same, im so scared i wont have u, even if it was a test, its gotta be one of e hardest test in my life, so hard tt passing it would be the BIGGEST achievement in my life, i know it may sound cliche, sound so unreal, so impossible, but if onli u knew how much u mean to me, sincerely trutthfully wholefully, i love u, always n alwaes!

if u get there before i do,
dont give up on me,
ill meet u when my chores are thru,
i dun noe how long i'll be
but im not goonna let u down,
darling wait and see
and between now and then
till i see u again
ill be lovinggg youuuu
love, me

14 MORE FRIGGING DAYS <3

AGES!

2008-08-17T05:56:00.000-07:00

yes yes i take FORVER TO BLOG ! :D but least im not dead yet :D hahaaa
m FINALLY HERE TO UPDATE FOTOS INTO MY RUSTY DIRTY OLD BLOG :D

ABS BIRTHDAY CELEB 18/07/08!
THE HOTTEST BIRTHDAY GIRL WOOTS!

OK ARGHHH BLOGGER IS DARN LAG N IT REFUSE TO LET ME POST THE REST!
ill try another day then :(

IM BACK!:D

2008-08-03T02:13:00.000-07:00

yes yes yes after YEARS of not blogging im FINALLY BAK!
cant blame me n plssss its not for the bak that BABIBUBEBO is bak but its cuz sch jus started and a LOAD of things have been happening!
due to the fact that my sem 1 marks were not that-good, i decided to BUCK UP this sem!
and this means ive gotta work hard WEEKLY and not jus weeks before exams!
n im kinda proud of myself!
my weekly timetable consists of

-PSY NOTES
-ACC TUTORIALS
-MATHS EXERCISE SHEETS AND EGS!
-LIT READING

to top it off now :

-PSY ESSAY
-HOI ESSAY
-ACC ESSAY
-LIT ESSAY
-DRAMA GRP WORK
-EAP DEBATE
-ACC QUICK BOOKS

im breathing and holdin on, learning to be strong
not to forget REPLYING OF E-MAILS, im reali sorry to those whose e-mails is dued like YEARS AGO im superb sorryyy!!!
im jus glad ive got FRIENDS whom i know will alwaes be there <3 love u tons, whtr its in indo, sg or aussie <3 im superbly thankful
and BABIBUBEBO who's alwaes standing by me and have been so NICE as to constantly cook weneva im in no mood THANK YOU WURVE!
and my dearest FAMILY, whom i shall not mention why but im terribly thankful for having have such understanding parents, :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:DD:D
and LAST BUT DEFINITELY NOT LEAST is my precious ever loving LORD, GOD :D thank you for havin been my never-ending suppoting pillar thank you oh so very much :D

on a random note, special lil notes to some of my dearest friends :D

CINDY!
im gonna be calling u in like 5 mins but before that i jus wan u to know how much I MISS U! and knowing that ull be leaving for US in a few weeks time burns my heart, knowing that wen i go bak indo no ''miss bt '' who wil be sms-ing asking me out or jus simply hangin at each other's house slacking, gossiping, comforting each other, thank you for the 8-9 years of LOVING FRIENDSHIP, i love u, and i wish u BEST for ur studies in amrik, dun let ur parents down, as well as dun let me down, wadeva happens stay the way CINDY WULAN SUDEWO have alwaes been, i know u noe wads right and wrong and im thankful for ever having a WONDEFUL fren like u :D i love you and will alwaes do! <3
god blesses u ALWAES and whereever u are, will alwaes be praying for you here! XOXO!

with tons of LOVE, andrea :D

:(

2008-07-10T07:35:00.000-07:00

i dun know why im feeling this way :(
but it isnt the nicest feelinggg :(
i hope wad i think is happening is NOT hapenning :"(
isnt my worry MORE THAN ENUFF ?!

3morefreakingdays
but so WHAT?!

dou niu yao bu yao

2008-07-10T07:00:00.000-07:00

to those who dun understand chinese, im reali sorry but i love this show to bitss OMG this is like e MOST EXCITING SHOW!
it makes my heart race up n downnn :D its played by HEBE! ahhahaha yesyesyes part of S.H.E but ok, actually i believe most of u ahve watched it, (cuz im alwaes LAST in such things but nvm) ahaha i love one of e guy jin zi chong a.k.a chong geeee <3
he is my ideal type of guy, not rich, not tt poor either, but he's nice, he's able to give one a sense of securityy right wen one needs it and i love how DA FANG he is, when he loves someone, he believes as long as e person he loves is happy HE WIL BE TOO :D and to me tts very sweetttt...
and i can almost cry and luagh in e the show, ok ok though i know this is not the first time i cry in a show buttttttttt this is such an exception laaaa <3!!!!

heheheeeee omgomgomg...half of me wants e show to end asap so thatn i know wad happens to e guys, another half hopes the show last FOREVA so i can continue FOREVER!!:D

and on a random note, he's jus like MY BABIBUBEBO :D now u noe why i love HIM so much ehhh :D

3morefreakingdays
love, me

MAX B! <3

2008-07-10T05:51:00.000-07:00

YAY! MAX B day out!:D hahahaaaa, it was a fun and lovely nite wit deli and tiff!
ok we were very mean GOSSIPIN A LOAD! <3
found out loadsa things but then, the world isnt perfect to start wit isnt it?

MEX B SIGN <3 (chi, wen we go bak WE GO, u'd love it)

tiff :D heheeee, she keeps complaining abt her BAD HAIR DAY

it is e BEST!

UNGLAM!

errr, we had a THEMED picture taking for e triplets, and this is...???

i wishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...(everyone knows wad)

i was holdin a the candle up on my headd friggin HOT!

that CHOCOLATES INSIDE! COOL HUH!!!!

and the angmoh waiter was ><

deli deli deli, U CAN DO IT :P

this was jus being US!

HAHAHAHA! tiff's GONNA KILL ME!

they were mockin me!!!! :(

sweettt, whilst tiff was chatting on e fone!

it was a CUTLERY themeeee

tiff was cut outtt which made e pic PERFECT (kidding)!

ok ok, after finishin all e fd i realised i FORGOT TO TAKE ANY PICS OF E FOOD! sorry chi :(
but it was reali DELICIOUS which was whyyy i forgot :( but nevertheless wen we go bak i PROMISE U ill bring u to MAX B toooo :D heheheeh
it was one of the most fun thing cuz other than jus havin my heavenly chocolateeee i also had a superb chat wit them both, hahaa, who wud have thought we'd stay there for 3 hours straightttttt, well 3/4 of the time was used taking photo though :P hahahaaaa so ya tt explain why there're sooooooooooooooooo many pics taken :D
hehee, shall post til here den, wil tok more on another posttt <3

even in my deepest SMILE,
im stil missing you <3

3morefreakingdays
loveme

im sorry

2008-07-09T06:34:00.000-07:00

im sorry that all my posts are abt HIM
but i feel so :'( im on e verge of :'''''''((((((((((
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh how much of this can i take, is shall cooollllll 4 more FREAKING DAYS but feellsss like 40000000000000000000000 YEARS !
:(

4morefreakingdays
love,me

my beating heart

2008-07-09T01:02:00.001-07:00

be safe my beating heart
<3

4morefreakingdays
love,me

webcam-ing :D

2008-07-08T03:42:00.000-07:00

past two days having been stuck home, wit my one and only LOVE <3
uuuuuuuuuuu 5 more days :(
why i love u so, never failing to make me fall more and more for u, babibubebo
its dark on purpose :D
my hair grew LONG :D
the past few days, though only home, but itsbeen good :D cuz least we're both stuck to webcam together, counting down, sighhhhhhh he'd be even more far awayyyyyyyyyyyy tmr and for e nex few days til fri, i hope i can survive, praying hard that GOD'll make it fast and nex monday can come SOONNNN :D arggghhhhhh pleasepleaseplease, days seem to pass like snailsss, wait not, maybe turtle?! but AIYA! whichever animal or lil thing walks slower i guess :X im starting to feel so DUMB! :(
moving tmr and soooo many things to do tmr, in e morn, go post office collect dearest wenchi's letter/package, safeway for veggies n fruits!(going on a DIET) , moving house, ggoin to do my bond thingy, and nitey, NGAFE wit tiff and e rest :D and lastly WEBCAM wit HIM :D yay! tt'll be wad im lookin forward to! :D missesmissesmisses...

5morefreakingdays
love,me

2008-07-06T08:21:00.000-07:00

and i miss you, even more each day :D
missed my dearest family :(
missed my dearest frens,

as of 12am
6morefreakingdays
love, me

DFO day out :D

2008-07-05T04:49:00.000-07:00

another dat OUT :D wit tiff and deli :D hoho
it was FUN and the DFO in the suburb is superb CHEAP :D i bought like 1 bag, 6 shirts, 1 skirt, 1 pants and ACCCESSSORIES and onli finished like AUD$50? hahaa which is reali good for aussie's standard considering that i was not hoping much for today's shopping and also spending of abt AUD$100? but yea :D im glad bought do's bdae present and hunny's shirts TOO :D hehe tts wad made me EVEN happiiierrrrr ^^

RETARDS :P i love!

US :P
introducing, drea, deli , tiff :D

ok shall blog more abt e bad thing of this DFO now, haha, though its super cheap and has quite a number of branded places, and by branded i only mean things like west&co, just jeans, jeanswest, esprit, novo and ETC :D it takes a hell long time to get there! first, from where i live, gotta take like a 5 min tram, followed by waiting of TRAIN which takes abt 15 min and den the train ride which consumes, 40 mins, and down to suburb, den waits for bus for abt 30 mins and lastly bus ride to DFO (FINALLY) 20 mins, in all its abt 1hr 50 mins! which is abt 2 HOURS! arggghhhhhh so my friends and i were complaining that we were tired more of waiting and transporting than the shopping itself was was round 5 hours?! haha cuz the place is HUGE and has loadsa things tt looking at them nearly made me sick cuz its like a factory OUTLET ! grrrr! but luckily made my trip worth by buyin THINGS and not just standing there! so ya *happy* :D ALSO! adding to ALL THAT, we were ALL on diet so basically onli ate juice and bread for breakfast and had to STARVE all e way till dinner whihc we ate at 730?! and yeaaa so we gobbled our fd down in 30 mins! hahahaaaa :D see how GREEDYYY we are :P:P:P:P ahahhaa but nevertheless had and enjoyable day wit them, hopefully *cross fingers* i can finish all hosue works by tmr and mon to join them for movies ( kungfu panda) on tues so YA ! GOTTA START TMR!!! praypraypray that ill stop procrastinating :D ugggggghhhh having a bad headache now, and i believe its all due to the excessive shopping and lack of FOOD! but hopefully diet turns out WELL :D ^^

misses hunny BADLY
8MOREFREAKINGDAYS
:D

im not alone

2008-07-05T04:39:00.000-07:00

:D missing him BADLY,

before i went out of house tdy, i thought abt how much i missed him :( webcammed him one whole nite last night to at least feel his presence and love and I DID :D thank you hunny <3 style="font-style: italic; font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">LOVE?but i believe, IF THERE'S A WAY THERE'S A WILL <3 style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">thank you JESUS,
thank you my dearest FAMILY
thank you my dearest FRIENDS
thank you my dearest BABIBUBEBO :D
<3 style="font-weight: bold;">

8MOREFREAKINGDAYS
:D

my babibubebo :D

2008-07-04T03:16:00.000-07:00

9morefreakingdays to his return !!! GRRRR :(
e missing of his presence is almost so emptyyy :( hunny, if ure reading this just wanna let you know how much I MISS YOU,

i shall dedicate this post to HIM :D

wondering who he is? thats for me to know and for YOU to find out! :P
hehe, i guess i really do feel like e luckiest gal ever to know him :D and i can never stop thankin god for it :D he's one special person adding to my list of GOD, family and dear frens :D
and i can never stop thankin him for EVRYTHING he has done, cuz at times even i myself wouldn't be able to do those things, e past haunts me, but only HIM could reassure me that the past is over and that the future or even present AWAITS, though we do fight ALOT, it doesnt reali matter, bcoz only the strongest can go thru the worst, and onli those who sincerely loves can pass thru e winds :D:D:D and im glad ive HIM

for all the times you withstanded me, THANK YOU
for all the love uve showered upon me, THANK YOU
for the sacrifices you've made for me, THANK YOU
for all the unconditional love uve proven to me , THANK YOU

thank you baby, thank you for making me feeel so loved, so much that everything in e past is worth cuz now, GOD has given me such s great GIFT, YOU :D that one and special YOU :D
muahmuahmuahhh :D hehe, ill be awaiting your return :D:D:D:D
misses u tons my BABIBUBEBO!:D hoho wurve you

9morefreakingdays
love, me

YARRA CAM-WHORING :D

2008-07-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

DAY OUT WIT TIFF AND YOGA :D
let the pics do the talkin now :D

it was truly a FUN AND FULL OF LAUGHTER EXPERIENCE
cuz tiff can never jus seem to stop making me n YOGA laughhhh :D esp towards the end where we were going home and sitting on the tram and TANTE TIFF had to go down the tram but overshot, cuz of e crowd, her face expression was SUPER FUNNY tt me and yoga was laughing like CRAZY on the tram in front of the crowd, but cant blame usss cuz tiff cant stop being crazy and maddd :P hahaahaha! looking forward to TMR :D DFO wit 'em and deli hehehee missesmisses! SEE YA SOON :D

9morefreaking days
love, me

continued...

2008-07-04T01:39:00.000-07:00

in no particular order :) my dearest friends! :DLOOO :D hahaa! i missed all ur crapiness :D how i wish i have someone like u here to BULLY and sa jiao wittt hahaa but nevertheless, seeing u online and all stil helps and dun worry abt JC and all ya, ure like superb smart and brainy, i believe ull have no probs goin thru e nex few months and nex year for A's i believe u can do it :D ahhaa so MUST YOU! looking forward to SEEING YOU SOON :D yes SOON ^^
LICE! hoho, lw somse ya... skrg cuman ngomong ma yogi! haha kidding nekkk, lookin forward to seeing you here NEX year ya nekk :D hoho cepetan yooo :D hehe! nanti balik indo ktemuan lg yaaa :D hehe jangan pacaran muluuu biarpun gw tau seberapa banyaknya lw kangen ma dy!!! :D hahaa hoho ktemuan lg yeee :D kangenn heheehhehe ^^
FIRFIR :D heheehe missed calling out to you tt way :D hahaa, n to reply to ur fs comment cuz my fs sucks, ive missed u HELL LOADS TOO! n ya i cant believe u missed me tt MUCH!:D :D hahaa, dun worry i believe dec will come REAL Soon and then we can start all our craps again and YES u can bully me AGAIN :D hahahaaha! ohmyohmyyyy cant wait for dec then u can share wit me ALL ur juicy STUFFS AGAIN :D yayyyy HAHAHA! missesmissesmisses !
FEL SEOW JER and not forgetting the rest of e 6C'03 peepz :D hehee, cant wait to org our 6C class gathering SOON :D hehee, cant wait to meet all u people and see how u guys have been :D hahaa:D miss miss miss u guys :D hehee :D and not forgetting EUG :D hehee miss miss misss SEE YOU GUYS SOON :D
VIENNN ^^heheheehe, missed those crazy times wen we keep fightinggg for out aiai :D hehes, but i really stil hope to go bak to the good old days :D *WISHING* but stil i cant wait to see you in DEC :D:D:D:D heheehe ICANTWAITT I MISS U :D
DEBS :D hahaa ive missed missed u, missed u sitting right nex to me, sleeping and snoring away, whislt tehreafter munching on all e goodies :D haha,:D times where i sit in tutorials bored to death are times that i wish O's could be bak to this year cuz at least ill have u here wit me :( though life in JC's hard, i believe u can go thru it all cuz ure strong :D and i just know u can :D reali hoping for 5months to pass in flash :D:D
NANANANA:D hahaha, OMG ive missed ur daily dose of laughters and SCREAMINGS of ANDREAAAAA :D hahaaha:D its been AGES since ive seen u in webcam! HOW HAVE YOU BEEN!UPDATE ME!:D haha will e-mail/call u soon my dear :D haha, cant wait for our chats and to see your silliness again :D 5moreMONTHS yay! miss u TONS :D takker my girl :D GBU ALWAES!
VERINE LING HUI YI! OMGGG i missed calling out to you that way missed missed missed missed! haha!:D ive missed jogging/swinging/or just plain talkin to you :D cant wait to go bak, and my dear girl :D pleasepleaseplease alwaes have more confidence in YOURSELF, youre PERFECT jus e way youre and we ALL love and appreciate u for that :D i love you and will always do :D and remember OUR JOGGING DATES! ahahaha :D
YEEEEEEEEEEEE! SCREAMS!!! hahahahahaha OMGOMGG :D uve not UPDATED ME FOR SUPER LONG HAHAHA! neway wen im bak better make free time to go out YA! cuz i noe wad busy woman YOU ARE EHHH :D hahaha! so im lookin forward to seeing u in our FIVERS GATHERING which i will definitely org. :D YAY! UPDATE ME SOON DEAR GIRL!:D
TOH LAY KIE!though i see u online almost EVERYDAY, but i cna almost guess wad ure doinnn , which is comp games/drawingg :D hahaa andandand though O's have passed almost FOREVER but im stil so PROUD OF YOU *AHEM* and im sure u know why :D i can never jus seem to forget it :D teeheeee :D lookin evermore forward to seeing u this DEC! in ALL our gatheringssss hehehee MISSES MY TOH LAY KIE!:D

and not forgetting all my other dearest friends, ive missed u n cant wait to see u guys in DEC :D YAY! missesmissesmisses!

SG !!!

2008-07-04T01:00:00.001-07:00

ARGHHHHHHHHH i seriously just cannot wait for 5moreMONTHS!but anyway, ive missed far too many people and cant wait to meet each and EVERYONE of u loves!
here are some pics *cross fingers* i hope i can laod them :D

1st pic, ME AND CIN :D hoho, my dearest cin who'll be leaving for amrik this SUNDAY, and yaaa though i know you'd be bak in august buttttt i still wouldn't be bak in august so its :(((((((((
gonna miss u dearly my dear girlll , all e times i ran to ur house which WAS jus a few blocks away, and now? :( NO MOREE :D all the sweettalks weve had :D ure the sweetest and best girlfriends ive ever had, and ive known u since err pri2/3? MEANING we've known each other for almost 9YEARS OMGGG! :D thankyou thankyou for alwaes being there for me thru e good and bad , thankyou, and i PROMISE! ill be in amrik SOON visiting YOU! hehehe and by then u better know how to PARK properlyyy :D hahaha MISSSES CINTRONK! p/s: dun ever forget me huhhhh hahaha :D cuz on e light note, ill NEVER :D
2nd pic, ME AND BONI :D bon bonnnn HAHAHAHA! gw dah kangen ABIS MA LW! haha ( ok ok im sorry to those speaking eng, cuz ya i normally speak to her in indo :D) hahaa lw dec harus tungguin d SG ya! awasss lw bis-nya kl d indo mau ktemuan ma lw dah kayak harus minta appointment ma presiden, jd yaaaaa HAHA! do takker ya nek, CANTWAIT FOR DEC!
3rd pic, ME AND YUL :D YULLL gw dah kangen abis ma lw biarpun lw jg dah lama balik indo tp-nya seenggaknya tiap taon lw balik sg :D tp taon ini :( huhuhu, gak bisa ktemuan ma lw lg!!! tp gak papa, nanti dec gw balik indo KTEMUAN LHO YA! :D:D hahaa awas lw ya harus make free time buat gw :D haha! misses NENEK!
4th pic, ME and WENCHI !! WENCHIIII HAHAHA! i bet ure reading this nowww :D haha, yesss your wish finally came true and i FINALLY made a BLOG! hahaha yesyesyes i know, so now u can finally stop nagging huh my DEAREST AHMA :D hahaa! misses u tons, seeing u on webcam yet having to stil wait til dec to meet u kills ME! but least it onli 5 MORE MONTHS! YAY!! ahha then can slack at your house playground again n watch e stars !! HAHA CANTWAIT!misses AHMA oooooppps :P dun kill me!

5th pic, ME N LI-TARD! hahaa kidding, liyannn I MEAN :D hahaha OMG IM DEAREST CLASSMATEEEE :D where have u been?hahaha, actuually ive still been msn-ing u all e way, and ur general knowledge nor chinese stil ahve not IMPROVED! how can YOU not know ANDREA CATALINA LAKSANA HUH? haha :PPPPP hahaha, cantcant wiat for dec n seeing u! hahahaa ive missed u, missed ur LOUD voice in class, missed BULLYIN teachers wit u, and YAY! can wait to join u in lectures in dec! haha, it'll be like e gd old days :D:D:D ohohoh, doesnt this font blend in wit LIYAN's shirt?:D

ok, this is jus e beginning, more on e next post :D i dun wan one post to be too WINDY :D

9morefreakingdays:D
love,me

1st EVER POST :D

2008-07-04T00:46:00.000-07:00

hello :D

i bet many of u are shocked that ive finally created a BLOG!yay!
hahaha, ok its cuz im darn bored, n my dearest wen chi n cindy have been bugging me to create a blog and so HERE I AM :D
am currently having the stupid hols right now. YEA? ironinc isnt it, that on school days im dying for hols but now that ive finally got one im hoping for my school days to be bak! and counting down, 9 MORE FREAKING DAYS! grrrrrr till he's bak :(
it feels so empty without him, n right now i can already think of a GAZILLION things i can do with him around and it definitely does not consist of stayin home and web-camming him :((((
but anywae now that im at a stage of COUNTING DOWN i cant forget to count down for DAYS I CAN FINALLY RETURN TO SG/INDO! ARGHHHHHH
5moreMONTHS 5moreE-MAILS 5moreLOVES! this is a lil smth ive came up with my girlfriends so that it'll make the months tt ill be going bak so much FASTER!:D:D:D:D:D
but anyway, stayin here have not really been that bad, least if i weight out e pros n cons, pros stil wins :P ive gotta do ALOAD of packings and CLEANINGS *AHEM* davin and joseph SHOULD KNOW WHY!!! and also hangin out wit all the indos :D but, do, wynn, abs, drey, george, jeff, joseph n HUNNY are dearly MISSED! :D:D:D:D
but the thought of school starting actually CREEPS ME UP too, cuz i know how bad ill do for esp ACC, not forgetting MATHS, which im suppposed to be revising NOW and also PSYY :D well HOI LIT and EAP is basically *cross fingers* too!
but ya im still hoping TERM 3 AND TERM 4 passes in a flash cuz thereafter means TRULY LIBERTY :D
ok den, guess should stop here, will carrryy on in my nex post abt e SG LIFE IVE MISSED :D

9MOREFREAKINGDAYS :D
love, me